My Journey


Pernah bercita-cita untuk menjadi seorang juruterbang wanita pertama Malaysia, tetapi sangat mencintai dan ingin mendalami ilmu biologi, namun pernah dipanggil untuk menyahut cabaran dalam bidang seni bina walaubagaimanapun telah ditakdirkan menyambung kehidupan sebagai mahasiswi kejuruteraan elektrik-elektronik ketika ini.
[3rd year survivor of electrical & electronic engineering student]

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Monday, July 24, 2017

The Most Viewed Entry

Recently, I just clean up my draft box because of so many unfinished post I lazily to continue. Aku ada masalah untuk sambung menulis post-post yang aku sudah tinggalkan. Tak tahu kenapa habit aku macam ni, aku ada perasaan tidak suka menyentuh benda yang sudah terbiar. Rasa macam menyampah giler tengok kerja yang separuh siap. I just feel like wanting to punch my own face. Grrrr. So, I decided to remove all the leftovers post except few which I plan to post when the right time comes.

So, when scrolling down all my published entries, my eyes startled to one of my post which I wrote it about 3 years ago. [Baca di sini] About my experience when I was in matriculation back in 2013, this post in my early version of the matured Ainiey. If you ever follow me since the beginning of my writing journey, you would see significantly the revolution of me. Seriously! (But, I guess no one would follow me since then. Yea, who cares about you, Ainiey!) *shut down lap top*

Sometime, I would read back all my dummy posts and  I would chuckle to my immatured version of me. How funny I could be! No, it's not funny. It is just dummy me! However, at one point I realize, how fast time flies and now I am growing up and growing older! Yeah since I've already started drinking Anlene to repair my fragile bone, and consumed collagen to maintain elasticity for my baby skin, and only god knows how engineering makes my hair grey. I don't know either this happens because of my age or my shampoo is so bad. So, to all my juniors, you should count this as one of the excuses why you shouldn't take engineering as your life. HAHAHA. No, I am just kidding. Engineering is fantastically fun! Trust me! :D

I am sorry because taking you to another world, back to the real topic, where do we stop? *let me read back my previous paragraph*

The reason I don't delete my old post, is I need it as reference and reminder. Sometime, when I feel down I will read back my old writings. It is somehow give my strength back, lift up my positive thought and drive my step forward. That is why, I like to write positive things because I need it in my negative time. I always repeatedly say to myself every words I write in public, is specifically I dedicate those words directly to myself. Not to other. But, if other people can get benefit from it, I will be thankful.

[This post] is the most viewed post all the time, it reached almost 2000 viewer. Usually, the number rise when the matriculation result came out. Well, I hope this not-so-helping-post, do really initiate the spirit of my young juniors out there to bravely pursue their dreams. Don't stop when you are tired, stop when you are done. You don't know how much closer between you and success if you give up now.

Today, I can pat shoulder of my old version of me. Because of she decided to not giving up, I am now at better position which I never could imagine once ago. Alhamdulillahi ' ala kulli nikmah. Hopefully, this current version of me will not disappointed the future version of me. May He guides me and ease my journey.

A book that crawls into your soul and never go out

Love
AH

Sunday, July 23, 2017

What kind of engineer I want to be

Bila berkerja dibidang yang bukan dari bidang yang aku belajar, satu benda yang aku acknowledge, ilmu yang aku ada sekarang sangat sangat sangat sangat sangatttt sikit. Di HUKM, setiap hari aku belajar benda baru. Kalau bukan dari rakan praktikal, dari staff yang bekerja di sana, atau dari doktor-doktor yang bertugas atau dari pesakit yang kita assist, mereka semua memberi pengajaran dan knowlegde baru setiap hari pada aku.

Setelah sebulan lebih berada di sini, aku banyak bersyukur dengan nikmat yang Allah beri pada aku. Pertama sekali, bila dapat peluang berkhidmat pada masyarakat walaupun sebenarnya apa yang aku beri tu sangat-sangat tak bernilai pun tapi aku rasa sangat seronok dapat tolong mereka. Jujur, aku mungkin tak akan dapat merasa peluang ini jika Allah takdirkan aku buat praktikal di dalam industri.

Kedua, setiap hari aku akan cuba duduk sebentar dan beriman sejenak akan nikmat kesihatan yang Allah telah beri pada aku selama 22 tahun aku hidup ini. Bila setiap hari tengok orang sakit, aku cuba jentik hati aku untuk selalu rasa syukur, "Ya Allah terima kasih Kau beri kesihatan pada aku hari ini." Aku akan cuba ulang ayat ini setiap hari. Ada orang pernah cakap kat aku, kesihatan ini seperti makhota dan ia hanya dapat dilihat oleh orang yang sakit.

Di jabatan radiologi ni, tidak sikit pesakit cancer yang datang untuk buat medical imaging dan diagnostic. Ada yang cancer stage dua, ada yang dah stage empat, ada yang orang tua, ada juga yang budak kecil, ada cikgu, ada juga pangkat professor, ada cancer otak, ada yang cancer sudah merebak ke serata anggota. Allah hu rabbi. Tapi, rata-rata pesakit yang aku jumpa, tidak pernah loket membalas senyuman aku. 

Orang cakap persekitaran di sini, luar dari suasana kejuruteraan dan ada juga orang kata bila aku decide buat praktikal di hospital aku tak akan dapat bina potensi aku dalam bidang aku. Tapi sebenarnya tidak! Justeru aku lebih tahu dan lebih faham, what kind of engineer I want to be in future. Berada di sini aku dekat dengan masyarakat, aku discover keperluan mereka, aku encounter masalah-masalah yang dihadapi mereka dan sebagai future engineer suatu hari nanti aku akan cari jalan penyelesaian kepada masalah yang di hadapi mereka. InsyaAllah.

Aku masih ingat lagi, hari pertama aku jejakkan kaki di UTM, seorang alumi UTM yang bekerja sebagai senior engineer pernah beritahu, engineer ini dilahirkan untuk menyelesaikan masalah yang dihadapi masyarakat dalam kehidupan seharian mereka dari se-basic masalah sehingga masalah yang besar. Kerja kita mencari solusi dan bertindak. Selalu cari peluang untuk belajar perkara baru, jika tidak jumpa, maka ciptalah peluang itu. Jadilah engineer thinks without the box. (Not out of the box)

Sampai hari ini, aku akan pegang dengan kata-kata itu. Di mana pun, Allah letakkan aku. Aku bercita-cita untuk jadi benih yang menumbuhkan akar, pohon, ranting dan daun-daun yang berguna untuk agama dan sesiapa saja yang berhampiran aku. Hopefully, every one can get benefit from me even just a particle of kindness. Amin. InsyaAllah

Love,
AH

Saturday, July 22, 2017

How to create an APP for android

As final year student-to-be, I am preparing myself for Final Year Project that I will be doing for my last two semesters. So, I have already started to plan what type of project I will run because of I have very limited time. Basically, in e&e engineering it has three type of project we can do; prototype, software or research based.

Prototype means student needs to build a hardware

Ni projek tahun tiga aku. Aku buat smart wheelchair using voice recognization. 
Wheelchair ni bergerak menggunakan arahan suara

Hasilnya, you guys can play video below.



Software means student has to create application that can be used by smartphone.

Image result for electronic final year project software


Research usually student will collect data, analyzing, doing experiment and others.

Aku nak cerita sikitlah, masa aku tengah cari maklumat pasal software dan cara-cara nak bina app kat smartphone untuk pengguna android, aku terjumpa ada satu website yang menyediakan cara nak buat app secara free. Sangat mudah weh!

Ni nama website tu

Ni antara jenis-jenis apps yang kau boleh buat

Contoh kalau aku nak buat apps pasal website AH Blog, aku hanya perlu click kat website, then masukkan url blog, pastu edit dan touch up. SIAP! As simple as that. Tapi kalau nak lagi kemas dan power, kena pandai main dengan HTML coding.


Ni contoh aku buat simple app untuk AH Blog

Kalau dah siap, dah preview dan dah puas hati. Akhir sekali, aku boleh publish app aku kat APPSTORE. Untuk pengetahuan, bila dah publish app tu di APPSTORE, setiap kali orang download app yang aku buat, aku boleh dapat income. APPSTORE yang akan bayar kat aku. Lumayankan? Boleh buat side income.

Boleh tonton video "How to publish"

Cuma, sebelum aku nak publish app kat APPSTORE, aku kena register dulu dan kena buat account di APPSTORE. Dan sekali register, kena bayar 25US dollar bersamaan RM108. Barulah boleh publish app tu. Buat app free, publish app kena bayar.

Tetapi, kalau app yang dibuat itu memang bagus dan digunakan oleh orang ramai, ramai orang download, bayaran RM108 tu celah gigi je. Cuma nak buat app yang bagus tu perlukan kemahiran dan kesenian sikitlah supaya target customer tu tercapai. Biasa app user friendly ni ramai orang suka.

Contoh, dulu lazada sebelum ada app kat smartphone, meraka hanya bina website je, tapi bila dah upgrade dan nak tarik lagi ramai pelanggan serta nak permudahkan urusan customer, mereka bina app pula.

Ni lazada website version

Ni lazada app version
Kantoi selalu shopping kat lazada >___<

Hopefully, this entry is useful for those who ever ask how to build a simple app. But, of course there have some other methods to build an application. This is one of the simplest way to build an app especially for beginner. However, this method only applicable for android user only, for iOS you need to find other app builder to create an app but I think the fundamental is still the same.

Untuk yang bakal buat FYP, all the best for you guys and may Allah ease everything! Doakan aku juga tau. Thank you for reading!

Love,
AH

Friday, July 21, 2017

I couldn't be prouder


As daughter of an engineer, I may have greatest influence from my parent, but in 22 years of my life, my parent never force me to do what I want to do, they never decide things for me, they never expect me to be like what other's children be and they never have negative assumption with the journey I decided to walk through.

I would lie if I said I never make wrong decision in my life. I swear I did, but honestly I never regret it. From wrong decision, I learned how to fix things up and do it wisely later on. From failure, I learned how to be strong and to fight again. Every single experiences and moments that Allah sent to my path, I believe it is a learning process to know myself better, to discover my hidden potential and to be closer to the one who created me.

Technically, my family is technical based background except my mom (she is super woman) and my younger sister because she is still in secondary school and will be seated for PT3 exam. Other members, insyaAllah we are in the same wagon. Weeehuuuu. And our role model is my father. Whoever knew my father would recognize, he is a quiet man with ambitious mind. He always do something to his fullest and never do any tasks or jobs or projects halfway. He is a persistent man and I dare to say, whoever worked with him would like how he's done his job.

I secretly admire my dad the way he responded to problem and the way he proposed the solution, never did he threw any bad words or negative thoughts to other person. He always find win-win solution if it involved with two prides and sometime when the problem still couldn't be settled, he would be the one who sacrificed himself. I couldn't be prouder to have him as my father. I even couldn't notice how amazing he is actually. Because to be honest I didn't really know him very much when I was young. Now, as I am growing older, my image about my dad became clearer.

Things happened like this because of my dad's job is at project site. If his project happened to be at terengganu, so he had to work there. If his project happened to be at sarawak, so he had to go there. He went to wherever project took him. And now, at the furthest place; South Korea. When me and my brothers were still young, we would follow where my dad go. But, as we've grown up and we needed to go to school so my dad decided to stay at one place and let him be away alone.

Since I was 10 years old, we have lived seperately. We barely have time together, no daughter-father chit-chat moments, no father's hugs and kisses for my achievements, no family celebration for birthday and no attendance for report card since he worked distant from us. I haven't have enough time to know him personally. I grew up as teenager without my dad around me but alhamdulillah Allah really protect and secure me, even though I haven't have enough attention from my dad (as a man) during my teenager phase but Allah didn't turn my heart to find any attention from other man. Maybe, my dad did pray a lot for me and my safety, I guess. I never have boyfriend in my life and I still be happy.

Now, I am becoming an elder woman but in the eyes of my dad, I am still his little daughter. The moment I started knowing him personally is after 19 years I live in this world, it happened while I spent my summer break at Korea and stayed with my dad for one month. Yea, that was my first experience having daughter-father chit-chat moment. It was fascinating! We went to aquaria together, we went to military museum together, we ate Uzbek's dished together, we had not-so-candlelight dinner together, we went to shopping for just two of us and many things we did together. When he went to work, I would cook and did laundry. 

He is not talkative person but he is a good listener. He is not sweet dad but he is the most caring daddy. My dad has military background as he was graduated from Royal Military College (RMC) so basically, he is a discipline father with a soft-hearted. When I was in Korea, the best memonts is I had a heart-to-heart conversation with him, when he said how he respects and loves my mom as he is being away from family and letting my mom settled everything by her own; taking care us, house core, expense and budget. He felt glad to have my mom as his wife. Yea, I could say everything she did by her own.. Hmm.

Indeed, I have a superwoman mom. I am blessed with her presence too.

Talking about my dad, something unpredictable happened to myself. Last week, my dad whatsapp-ed me and do you know what happen? Out of sudden, he asked me


His question "Pak we doc mcmana?" gave me a goosebumps all over my body. Where did he gets this information? How did he knows? Why so sudden? All the questions come like a bullet in my mind. Fuh.. Fuh.. Inhale..Exhale..Inhale..Exhale.. Well, if you know how to control your adrenaline rush, everything will be settle down onto its place. Eicehhh.

My dad is very particular about the things he wants to say. No empty talk, no rubbish chatting. Everything out from his mouth is important and informative. Or else, he is just keep silent. Back to whatapps conversation, whenever the conversation started like this, I knew something serious was happening. And before the conversation got more serious, I better put my hands up. Who knows a soft-hearted father probably turns to a stern sergeant if it involves with his daughter's happiness.

Moral of the story: Don't expect your father didn't know what you do. Just be a good girl if you want to be safe. Stay safe and stay cool, guys!

Love,
AH

Thursday, July 20, 2017

The reason I choose engineering

CT Scan internal part

After completing my matriculation level, I had a bit dilemma in choosing what field I wanted to further my study. My mom really wanted me to be a teacher, she said that profession suits for lady. She worried I would follow my dad's step because she had strong instinct I would do so. But, my dad is very natural. He said pursue whatever you want but don't do it halfway.

Even though, I didn't really into with physics but I found chemistry between me and electrical. I realized during my matriculation, I love that chapter very much. All the formula at my fingertip. I also keep all my secondary school notes for electricity chapter and even compiled it neatly (for future used I guessed) but I didn't do it to any other chapters. So, from that, when I filled up UPU online registration, I put electrical as my majoring study.

So, when choosing field at UPU online registration, it had four options for Research University and eight options for non-research university, I put electrical electronic engineering as my first and second choices but at different university. Then biomedical engineering as my third and fourth choices. This application is for Research University. Another eight options, I choosed electrical in science, landscape in architecture and many more. Along the waiting period before the result announced, I did istikharah prayer, hoping for Allah gave what is best for me in the eye of Him. I trust everything Allah decides for me, He knows the best for His slave. 

The result came out and I got the first choice of UPU's application. And guess who was the one felt happy but at the same time felt worried? Yah, my mom. She disbelieved I choosed engineering at last. But, I tried to convince her with so many excuses and finally she gave her blessing for my decision. Yeah!

Honestly, I never have a dream to take engineering as my study, not even my ambition to be an engineer. From my early age, I wanted to be a pilot or maybe an architect because for me that job is super cool. Don't you think so? But... Who knows right? HEHEHE. Well, I believe Allah's plan is much much much better.

Six semesters already completed, another two semesters waiting me ahead. So far, I enjoy being an e&e engineering student. I never thought engineering world is fun (as if you don't have bunch of assignments, late night tests and multiple projects at one time). Especially, when you see how technologies grow in your palm. And your electronic devices being used by diverse people to ease their daily life. The feeling is like a mother gives birth to her child, it's hurt but the feeling is undescribable happy.Its tough but you will feel contented.

Now, I am still struggling to complete my degree in electrical electronic engineering. I hope everyone who reads this post can shoot some duá for my success. Another two semesters to go. I hope I will be able to complete my degree study on time with flying colour. May your duá bounce back to you, insyaAllah.

For my juniors who want to pursue engineering but feeling hesitated to do so, or to those my juniors who already study in engineering but wanting to give up, my advice is whenever you see no way out, Pray to Allah and trust yourself. Don't ever look giving up is an option. Just walk because when Allah allows you to it, He will make you through it. 

Footnote: Sometime you just need to close your eyes and let the wind drives your steps, with a hope the wind is purposely sent from the Almighty all the way to your journey. Hmm... I mean, just keep walking! (if you don't get my metaphor :D)

Love,
AH

Monday, July 17, 2017

Engineer di hospital

Hari ini masuk minggu ke enam aku berada di jabatan radiologi sebagai pelajar praktikal. Ramai orang yang pelik macam mana pelajar kejuruteraan boleh buat internship placement di hospital. Pelik tetapi benar! Basically, aku sudah cerita [boleh baca di sini] macam mana aku boleh tercampak seorang diri di hospital walaupun at first, aku rasa tak berapa sure nak stay here. Tapi, pejam celik sebulan telah pun berlalu dengan begitu pantas dan tinggal lagi 6 minggu sahaja lagi aku akan mengakhiri latihan industri disini. Woah!

Sepanjang aku berada di sini, banyak benda baru aku belajar. Selain enviroment di hospital ini yang memang asing bagi aku, aku belajar banyak ilmu-ilmu baru yang asing dan luar dari bidang kejuruteraan. I feel glad and grateful to be given an opportunity to be here and being lingering around with so many people and colleagues which I barely get this chance back in UTM.

Doing internship in hospital specifically at radiology department is quite tougher than I thought because of my majoring knowledge is engineering based and what I have learned in class during previous semesters is something different with what I am working now. It is related but it is something more to application to what I have learned before.

Di sini aku tidak mengadap circuit, tidak mengendalikan AC/DC generator, tidak menjumpai resistor/capacitor/inductor, tidak bermain dengan coding dan software, tidak ada encounter dengan control system problem and proposed solution, tidak bersentuh dengan elektronik components/instrument, tidak pening kepala buat troubleshoot and analysis pada complex circuit dan sudah pastinya tiada renjatan elektrik..

Apa yang ada di sini, several complete machines come with its own user friendly software, buku dan data internet untuk cari matlumat tentang function dan procedure untuk sesuatu modaliti yang ada di jabatan radiologi. Di sini aku banyak membaca dan membaca dan membaca. To be honest, I hate reading facts information especially information with lots of lots of words and I cannot stand with a thick non-fiction book that has very small fonts, its hurting my eyes! But, after several weeks doing the same thing, now I can get used to this new routine.

I can say, doing internship here has pros and cons. But, as future engineer I don't want to look the weakness side and being drowned for its disadvantage instead I try to find the oppurtunity that can improve myself, skills and knowledges. As if there is no opportunity and space to learn new things then I take a risk to create the oppurtunity and set my own goals to achieve. Be brave and independent to try new thing is my motto here. Hehehe.

Alhamdulillah. Everything is from Allah blessings. I don't expect anything when I come here. I don't expect what they can give to me instead I do the math to what I already give to them and to me myself yeah that is the most important thing I guess. I have a lot of stories I want to share but as for now I just be able to write this first.

My experiences face with different community, various background study and profession levels in one building is the priceless experience I would ever have. Knowing doctor life is another point of view that changes my perspective and yea lots of things I really want to share here. InsyaAllah. Doakan aku sentiasa berada dalam good state of spiritual and physical condition. I am still struggling to be a better one. Hope AH Blog reader be at good state as well.

Love,
AH

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Saturday, July 15, 2017

Do not stop to know yourself

I had read an article about Q.U.A.I.N.T.R.E.L.L.E. which insists me to share something with AH World. Have you ever heard this word before? Nah? If not, (I hope you don't know!) please allow me to throw some pieces of my thoughts about the meanings behind this term. Ehem.

QUAINTRELLE is a term that defines a woman who emphasizes a life of passion expressed through personal style, leisurely pastimes, charm, and a cultivation of life's pleasures.

Basically, QUAINTRELLE stands with five pillars

  • A life of passion
  • Personal style
  • Leisurely pastimes
  • Charm
  • Cultivation of life's pleasures

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A life of passion
What is life without passion? More important than money or status, passion is the driving force for a fulfilling and beautiful life. What are your passions? (Yes, you can have more than one!) Whether it’s literature, film, art, travel or food, the quaintrelle makes pursuing her multiple passions a priority in her daily life. She dedicates her working life to a subject she is passionate about and cultivates relationships with those she feels passionate towards.


Personal style
Ah, style. The grown-up sister of fashion. While fashion is fast, frivolous and (ultimately) futile, style says something about the woman you are. How you present yourself shows creativity, individuality, and self respect. And it’s not just about how you dress, either – style shows up when you pen a handwritten note, decorate your home, and wrap up a gift for a loved one. Every moment in life is a chance to express your personality and creativity through your personal style.

Leisurely pastimes
A leisurely pastime is anything you find both enjoyable and relaxing – reading a good book, sipping a hot cup of herbal tea, taking a scented bubble bath at the end of a tiring day, or going for a brisk half hour walk through the local park. These are just some of my leisurely pastimes. What is it for you? A quaintrelle will always make room for fun in her schedule, whether it’s a tennis match, meeting a friend for coffee, or perusing a new art exhibition.

Charm
Everyone can be charming, but it’s a muscle you have to stretch and train. Flirting, actually, is just being charming – but you can do it with anyone! Friends, colleagues, the barista at your local coffee shop – everyone. Smile, compliment, and be charming – others will naturally be drawn to you. Charm isn’t sleazy or false – be honest but kind, be a good listener, and make whoever you’re talking to feel like they’re the most important person in your world – that’s charm.

Cultivation of life’s pleasures
In other words, the little things – watching the sunrise on a dewy spring morning, taking your first sip of red wine on a Friday night, or downloading the latest episode of your favourite podcast. When you practice gratitude and celebrate the little things, life becomes richer and even more fulfilling. I like to keep a small notebook on my bedside table, and each night before going to sleep, I fill a page with a list of things I’m grateful for – big or small.

passion + style + leisure + charm + pleasure = quaintrelle.

From the article I read, I realize I AM A QUAINTRELLE! After 22 years old I live, I just discovered whom I am. It is still not too late to know myself, right? :) 

The only way to love my own self, is, by knowing whom I am. We cannot love something we don't know. right? Like the saying goes,"Tak kenal, maka tak cinta. Tak kenal, maka ta'aruf la."

Same goes to a long last relationship. I did ask my mom how to get a long last relationship and the love that never fade away. My mom said "Keep knowing and keep learning new things about your partner/friends no matter how long you have been together, because naturally people change, that is why you need to know them every day."

Though, I never in relationship hehe, but I agree with my mom.

Know. Learn. Love.
Do it everyday.
And that is how QUAINTRELLE lives her life.

Love,
AH

Monday, June 26, 2017

Apa yang ada disisi Allah itu lebih baik

Alhamdulillah, today is 1st syawal and every muslim celebrated Hari Raya with their own ways in joy and happiness insyaAllah. Here, your humble AH Blog writer wants to congratulate to every muslim who succeed to complete and accomplish your goals during in month of ramadhan. This eidul fitri is your celebration!

This raya is significantly different from my 21 years of eidul fitri. Why?

Because this raya, I celebrated eidul fitri without my parents around me. It quite tough at first but apparently one day had just gone by, so I could say I am survived! HuHuHu.

I am a type of family person. I am so clingy especially toward my mom. So, being away from my parents especially for a big day like eidul fitri somehow did test me ALOT! Don't mention how much tears I'd created for past few days. It's just like a waterfall dude! Duh....

However, being separated like this make me fully submitted and rely onto Allah. I felt closer to Him. My ramadhan this year was particularly different from other ramadhan. Whenever, I felt like wanting to pour and burst everything inside me, Allah made Himself the one who wanted to hear my stories the most. I would cry a river the moment I started to speak to Him. I was such a baby when I was telling everything to Him even though I knew He has already known everything, but it was such a beautiful feeling to do so and that feeling I couldn't describe.

Whenever Allah takes one part from me, He replaces another part which is much better and prettier than the one He took away from me. Alhamdulillahi ala kulli nikmah.

So, that is my two cents. Hopefully, AH Blog readers have a great time and enjoy every single nikmah Allah has given us. InsyaAllah.

So, before I end my post please allow me to dedicate my humble pantun for you guys!

Pagi raya disambut gembira
Pergi ke masjid nak solat raya
Makan ketupat janganlah lupa
Ucap bismillah dan bersyukur pada Nya

Ketupat dan rendang dijamah begitu saja
Enak dimakan sambil berbual mesra
Puasa sebulan mengumpul pahala
Habis puasa terus istiqomah ya!

Berjalan raya ziarah menziarahi
Hulurkan tangan saling memaafi
Dari penulis menyusun sepuluh jari
Mohon diampuni salah silap diri

Eid mubarak!

Love,
AH

Not the one who wears niqab :-)

Friday, June 23, 2017

Percaya sama Allah

Aku mungkin rasa ada kimia antara kita (chemistry?) dan aku juga rasa bila aku dan kamu ada banyak persamaan, we're suit for each other. Tapi, harini I come across to this ayah 

"Boleh jadi kamu membenci sesuatu, padahal ia amat baik bagimu, dan boleh jadi (pula) kamu menyukai sesuatu, padahal ia amat buruk bagimu; Allah mengetahui, sedangkan kamu tidak mengetahui.” (Q2: 216)


Hidup ini bukan tentang soalan rasa aku. Atau rasa kamu.


Tapi, Allah.


Sebab aku dan kamu tidak punya apa2 pengetahuan selain sedikit yang Allah pinjamkan untuk kita tahu. Selebihnya, Allah saja yang tahu.


Ayat ni sangat meneutralkan. Sangat tak bias. Sangat mengembalikan seseorang manusia yang beriman berpijak pada realiti.


Kalau memang setiap takdir itu telah ditetapkan berlaku, walaupun kita sudah usaha sedaya untuk mengubahnya, walaupun kita telah berdoa sehabisnya untuk menukarnya, namun ia tidak mengikut seperti apa yang kita mahu, pasti takdir itu adalah yang terbaik menurut Allah untuk kita. Pasti! Yakin saja sama Allah yea. Percaya sama Allah bahawa Allah itu tidak akan mengecewakan kita.


Hari tu balik kerja nampak flyover concrete yang tiangnya kecik gila tapi tiang tu tampung base jalan yang besar kedabak. Dalam hati, engineer yg buat design ni salah calculation ke apa. Tapi, project run means everything's under control la. Of course la tiang tu sangat kukuh untuk menampung beban atas dia. Walaupun tubuhnya kecil tetapi jiwanya besar. Eh tetiba.


So dari sisi manusiawinya kita mungkin rasa kita seperti tiang itu nampak macam tak mampu untuk tampung certain ujian atau takdir yang Allah aturkan untuk kita. But hey, Allah is ultimately the BEST engineer ever. Allah tahu tahap mana kemampuan hambaNya. Allah tahu potential apa yang ada dalam diri hambaNya. You shud trust Him more than the one who designs this flyover. Okey?


Love,

AH

Thursday, June 22, 2017

Dear future husband

This letter I dedicate for my future husband whom I not know who is he but I hope one day if that person is meant to find this blog and find this post, I would humbly like to say, yea this is for you.

Why i need a long pre-introduction in every post hah? Duh!!

Because of my descriptive english is not so good, I better use malay language so that none of these lines lead to misunderstanding. So, here we go...

Wahai bakal suamiku,

Pertama kalinya, aku mahu kamu tahu aku bukan seperti kebanyakan gadis di luar sana, aku tidak memiliki kecantikan seperti kebanyakan gadis dimasa kini, aku tidak punya minat seperti kebanyakan gadis yang hidup di zaman serba moden ini. Pakaianku tidaklah trendy tapi apa adanya. Wajahku jarang sekali dioles make-up tapi apa adanya. Aku adalah aku. Aku hidup untuk memenuhi keinginan Tuhanku, aku hidup untuk meraih perhatian Tuhanku.

Aku punya masa silam. Aku punya jahiliyah diwaktu lalu. Tapi kini aku sedang mendaki sedikit demi sedikit tangga-tangga menuju ke Tuhanku. Aku sedang merangkak menuju ke Tuhanku. Aku sedang belajar mengenali dan mencintai Tuhanku. Dan aku akui, perjalanan menuju padaNya tidak mudah. Untuk istiqamah itu sangat mencabar. Adakala iman ku terbang tinggi mendakap ilahi, adakalamya iman ku tergolek menyembah bumi.

Wahai bakal suamiku,

Aku mahu kamu tahu, aku memilihmu adalah kerana agamamu. Aku memilihmu adalah kerana akhlakmu. Tidak lain, hanyalah itu. Masa silammu, kelemahanmu, kekuranganmu itu aku akan terima seadanya seperti mana kamu menerima aku seadanya untuk menjadi bakal isterimu.

Aku memilihmu kerana agama supaya aku dan kamu akan dijaga oleh Allah sehingga akhir hayat kita. Aku memilihmu kerana agama supaya cinta dan kasih sayang kita membawa kita sampai ke syurga. Aku memilihmu kerana agama supaya dari kita akan lahirnya benih-benih cinta yang soleh dan solehah, yang suatu hari nanti merekalah akan menjadi pembela agama dan manusia dan merekalah yang akan mendoakan kita bila kita sudah tiada. Aku memilihmu kerana agama kerana aku ingin menjadi ketua bidadari yang bisa mencemburukan bidadari-bidadari syurga yang sedia ada di dalam syurga. Aku memilihmu kerana agama kerana aku ingin bersamamu selama-lamanya.

Thursday, June 15, 2017

Hari pertama praktikal di HUKM

This gonna be a helpful post for junior out there (hopefully) for their future internship. As some of you might knowing that (I guess), I was 3rd year electrical electronic engineering student from University Technology of Malaysia in skudai. And for your information, Uitm and UTM are definitely different university so please please please bear in mind because I am not gonna repeat that again the reason I am telling this because still quite a lot of people out there cannot differentiate between these two universities.

So, I'd just finish my 3rd year study and soon I will be in 4th year and it is my final year for my degree journey. Recently, I've been posting about my internship first day experience on my instagram. And few of my friends did ask me how my engineering study background can relate to clinical background since I am doing my internship in Hospital Univerisiti Kebangsaan Malaysia.

Basically, my major background is electrical-electronic engineering but starting from semester two 3rd year, I took Biomedical electronic as my minor. So, I took subjects anatomy and physiology of human plus medical instrumentation as part of biomedic field. And next semester, I will have clinical imaging, bio signal processing, bio modelling and so on. Anything related to tools that been use in medical field such MRI, CT scan and many more. From here, my engineering background can relate with clinical background and that is how I throw myself in Hospital and medical sector instead of being in industrial company.

So, during my 3 months of internship, I will do some research about image processing in MRI machine and what it is pros and cons from others machine and what improvement I could do on it and research about it. Meaning that, my pathway to postgrad journey become clearer. HUHUHU. Maybe :-D InsyaAllah. I think maybe this is one of the reasons why my journey designed and be eased like this, maybe Allah wants to prepare me to further my study in postgrad. If that so, may Allah ease for me :-)

Sunday, June 11, 2017

Tips membeli belah di Korea

Sedapnya air sirap bandung. Warnanya. Baunya. Kedinginan air tu sehingga butir-butir air menitis kat dinding gelas tu. Sungguh sangat menggoda jiwa dan raga. Slurppp.

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Hari ini aku nak share tips membeli belah di Korea. Walaupun aku tidaklah pro mana tapi izinkan aku berkongsi sedikit pengalaman yang aku ada ni pada AH World supaya boleh menjadi rujukan (untuk aku terutamanya sebab aku sejenis maknenek yang mudah terlupa) pada mereka-mereka yang ingin bershopping sakan di Korea.

First of all, zaman aku pergi Korea dahulu, mata wang Korea masih rendah lagi. 1000 won dapat RM3, Sekarang kalau tidak silap 1000 won dapat RM3.80. Rasa macam tak nampak beza sangat kan? Okey, meh aku bagi example yang mudah. Harga makanan yang berat macam nasi atau mee yang berlauk dan semestinya halal, diyakini dan mengeyangkan so harga meal yang paling basic adalah 10 000 won. Masa zaman aku, harga sepinggan nasi 10 000 bersamaan RM30. Kalau sekarang sepinggan bersamaan RM38. Beza 8 ringgit weh!!!! Banyak tu!! Sekarang dah rasa nak tersedak tak? Itu baru saja keperluan asas seperti makanan, belum lagi yang lain. Lainlah kalau you all nak makan kebab hari-hari atau mi segera maka mungkin boleh cut the budget. Tapi, macam aku dulu tinggal lama sikit, muak juga makan benda yang sama.

Saturday, June 10, 2017

Pemergian yang dicemburui Kak Shea Rasol

This past few days, I've heard about death quite frequent. After Adik Syahid left us, then one of famous fashion blogger Kak Shearasol also left us. Her death gave impact to everyone who knew or not knowing her. I think I've heard about Kak Shearasol long time ago, at moment I start blogging. And few days before she meninggal dunia, I stalk her instagram and read her blog.

I must say, I got inspired with every single words she wrote. She is just an inspiring woman. Even I did
n't know her personally, I can see and feel what people around her and close to her say about it is true. She has kind heart with beautiful smile and happy face.

Allah. I read lot of feedback from her friends or some who knows her or been working with her, not even a single one say about bad things about her. And she died at jumaah in the most blessing month. She is honoured by Allah. I really hope I can meet her someday in jannah and tell her how amazing and inspiring she is even after she dies everyone still get benefit.

Kak Shea Rasol,
rehatlah sepuasnya.
Akak dah tak berada dalam kesakitan lagi dah.
Mesti best kan main kat dalam taman syurga tu.
Jealous tau!
Jumpa kat sana ye.
Dalam syurga.

Love,
AH

Cantiknya kak shea!

Wednesday, June 7, 2017

Kehilangan yang memisahkan selamanya

Esok paper terakhir aku untuk perjalanan tahun 3 sebagai pelajar kejuruteraan elektrik-elektronik di UTM ni. Doakan semoga esok berjalan lancar dan dipermudahkan untuk aku dan kawan jawab paper esok dengan tenang.

Di saat aku sibuk nak revise balik untuk subjek esok, aku sempat scroll IG aku. Lalu, terkeluar berita mengenai adik syahid, anak Bazli UNIC baru pergi meninggalkan dunia ini. Inalillahi wainnalahirajiun. Sebak terasa dihati. Aku sejak dahulu mengikuti perkembangan adik Syahid, agak terasa kepergiannya. (Time nak taip ni pun terasa nak berair je mata)

Hari sudah mendengar dua berita kematian dan kedua-dua berita itu adalah dari anak kecil yang pergi meninggalkan dunia. Serius aku terasa, kalau lah semuda itu Allah boleh tarik nyawanya, apatah aku yang telah 22 tahun ini, pasti sahaja nama aku menunggu giliran seterusnya untuk dipanggil menghadap Allah.

Aku terfikir apakah benda yang aku boleh bawa sebagai bekalan aku disana? Apakah jawapan2 yang boleh aku jawab bila Allah tanya aku nanti?

Aku kelu.
Aku tidak pasti aku punya jawapan itu.
Aku tidak pasti aku bisa menjawab setiap lontaran soalan malaikat kubur nanti.
Selama 22 tahun aku hidup, apa yang sudah aku lakukan?

Hmmm.

Di satu sisi lain.

Aku tertanya bagaimana rasanya kehilangan orang yang kita sayang? Kehilangan yang memang kita tak akan nampak jasadnya lagi di dunia ini. Kehilangan yang memisahkan dua dunia.

Suaranya sudah tidak dapat didengari.
Sentuhanya sudah tidak dapat dirasai.

Aku tak boleh bayangkan perasaan itu,
Aku takut untuk membayangkan perasaan itu,
Aku takut jika diuji dengan ujian sebegitu.

Kerana itu aku selalu menangis bila mendengar berita tentang kematian sebab aku rasa kematian benar-benar pemisah satu jasad yang masih hidup dengan satu jasad yang sudah mati.

Macam mana kalau rindu?
Kalau yang jasad itu sudah kaku

Macam mana kalau perlu?
Kalau yang jasad itu sudah ditumbuni tanah dan batu

Macam mana kalau mahu?
Kalau yang jasad itu sudah tidak menyahut seperti dulu

Allah..

Aku takut untuk menghadapi saat itu
Tapi, kematian itu sesuatu yang pasti.
Tiada kejadian yang sepasti itu,
selain kematian yang menunggu

Jika saat itu tiba,
aku mengharap sangat aku bisa tenang dan redha untuk merelakan pemergiannya

Jika saat itu adalah aku,
aku mengharap aku bisa pergi dengan tenang dan diredhai semuanya

Aku juga mengharap agar saat itu adalah saat yang paling mengembirakan kerana aku bakal bertemu dengan penciptaku dan mengharap aku bakal disambut dengan ceremony dan paluan gendang yang cukup indah disana.

Buat Adik Syahid,
Aku pasti kau sedang tenang disana.
Semoga dapat ketemu lagi duhai Adik Syahid Bintang Syurga.
Kehilangan yang memisahkan selamanya tetapi itu cuma didunia
Moga2 ada pertemuan semula di Syurga sana

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Thursday, June 1, 2017

Set our soul to be free

Salam ramadhan to everyone of you,

today is already 6 days we've been in this holy month. Alhamdulillah. And tomorrow is my second paper for my final examination. Make a du'a for me yea!

Throughout my life, I have faced some ridiculous phases that I've never been thought before. And one of it, rebellious phase. My teenage age is full of wondered questions. Some I already got the answer, some I still find it anyway.

I am not a good person. I did a lot of mistakes and still doing it. But, somehow I am trying to improve myself and struggling become someone better in future and at the same time I hope my existence gives benefit to people out there. Even though, it is just few people,but I wish these few people can be my witnesses and help me in the day of judgement. InsyaAllah.

Rebellious phase is the period when I feel everything's going against my direction. I feel nobody understand me. I feel no one wants to hear me. And thing I have to admit, during this phase living in malaysian's mentality sometime is quite tougher- common sense is peculiar thing for them. Some people I met, they tried to walk against culture normality but throughout the journey they lost humanity inside them. But, some people are well-performed in their journey but they lost others hands to hold together.

World is not cruel but we are. I was stuck between confusion but in somebody else's view I was trying to stop walking and make excuses. Then, when I tried to digest and want to explain, the arguments and judgments fell like bullet rain even I can't have a chance to explain. (maybe I unwillingly refuse to explain because the bullet already shot me dead)

But, today. I learn to forgive everything/everyone and make my heart at ease. I also learn to forget everything/everyone and make my move go faster. I don't want my past holds me. So, today I want to untie the ring that locked me for all this while. With His help, I want to set myself free and be free. I don't want to be shaped by human perception and expectation but only by His.

We only feel free when we know who are we and what we need to do in this dunya. And to get those answers, you have to read the manual from the one who created us because the manual is the only We-He guidance that we have, in order to survive in this dunya.

Ya muqalliban qulub, sabbik qulub ala deenik

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Marilah berusaha keras untuk ramadhan kali ini
Semoga Allah redha usaha kita dalam mendekati Dia.

Surah asy-syam

1. Demi matahari dan cahayanya di pagi hari,
2. dan bulan apabila mengiringinya,
3. dan siang apabila menampakkannya,
4. dan malam apabila menutupinya ,
5. dan langit serta pembinaannya,
6. dan bumi serta penghamparannya,
7. dan jiwa serta penyempurnaannya (ciptaannya),
8. maka Allah mengilhamkan kepada jiwa itu (jalan) kefasikan dan ketakwaannya,
9. sesungguhnya beruntunglah orang yang mensucikan jiwa itu,
10. dan sesungguhnya merugilah orang yang mengotorinya.
11. (Kaum) Tsamud telah mendustakan (rasulnya) karena mereka melampaui batas,
12. ketika bangkit orang yang paling celaka di antara mereka,
13. lalu Rasul Allah (Shaleh) berkata kepada mereka: ("Biarkanlah) unta betina Allah dan minumannya".
14. Lalu mereka mendustakannya dan menyembelih unta itu, maka Tuhan mereka membinasakan mereka disebabkan dosa mereka, lalu Allah menyama-ratakan mereka (dengan tanah),
15. dan Allah tidak takut terhadap akibat tindakan-Nya itu.

marilah pilih untuk menyucikan diri kerana orang2 yang mahu menyucikan diri itu adalah orang yang beruntung.

Love,
AH

Saturday, May 27, 2017

Intention

"Actions are according to intentions, and everyone will get what was intended. Whoever migrates with an intention for Allah and His messenger, the migration will be for the sake of Allah and his Messenger. And whoever migrates for worldly gain or to marry a woman, then his migration will be for the sake of whatever he migrated for." 
Related by Bukhari & Muslim

I begin my post with this hadith because this is the fundamental knowledge in Islamic culture. Alhamdulillah, today is our first ramadhan. I am grateful because I am still be given a chance to have this opportunity being in this holy month of ramadhan. Because it is our first day, why not I start my #ramadhanpost with something really basic yet important. InsyaAllah.

First time I knew about this hadith, I was startled because this hadith was like a sandwich. Everything was wrapping nicely inside it, fluffy bread, juicy meat, fresh veggie and homemade ketchup are wrapped amazingly and when you look at it, your mouth waters.

Fuh!
(forgive me for describing about food at this moment)

Okey, back to the hadith. Rasulullah saw said every action is according to its intention and everyone will get what was intended. If you wish to do a good deed, insyaAllah Allah will ease you to do that deed. If you wish to be a better person, insyaAllah Allah will help you to walk through the journey of being someone better. If you wish to know Allah closer, insyaAllah Allah will expose Himself to you so that you know Him better. If you wish to get any achievement in your live, insyaAllah Allah will drive yourself to obtain what you want.

BUT,
it has three type of situations

1) Allah will give directly whatever you want
2)Allah will hold your wish for some time and grant it at the right moment
3)Allah will replace something better than what you've wished for

and all three situations are benefit to human because only Allah knows the best for every single of His slave.

Furthermore, at the very last verse. There are two condition of examples been listed. One, the person who migrates because of Allah. The other one, the person who migrates because of woman (dunya matters). Even though this two person have different intention, but they will get what they have wanted.

I ponder why this hadith gives such example, why the arrangement of hadith like that. Then, I understand one thing. Allah is the most justice and mercy. He never forbids us to have intention for worldly matter as well as akhirah matters. And the reason this hadith begin with example for a person who migrates because of Allah, Allah actually wants to emphasize if you come to Allah and follow the step from rasulullah, Allah will grant you for both matters; worldly and akhirah.


Logically, worldly matters is something isn't permanent. So, it's just short term goal. But, meeting Allah and Rasulullah is a permanent goal. Being in paradise is long last goal. If you aim akhirah, you will get both dunya and akhirah. But if you aim world matter, you won't never reach akhirah.

Simple equation.

So, starting from today, let's aim something BIG because our journey is not end in this dunya. We have one big mission to be accomplished, it is gather with our Lord, Rasulullah and our family in jannah.

And,the big aim, start with little thing which is, intention.

You will get what was intended

Love,
AH

Tuesday, May 23, 2017

Insecurity

Not only once or twice I have been thinking about these matters,
its already take almost more than half of my time to crucially think about it,
I am scared, I feel insecure and sometime I just think I can't do it.

The reason I write this post, I really want to comfort myself and I want to tell myself, I can do it even its look impossible. So many time, when I thought I couldn't do it but when the challenges passed I be able to get through it. So many things, I said I couldn't do it but when the time went by I be able to face it.

And dear, this time around is the same thing. It is just a piece of another taste sweetness of life. These obstacles wouldn't stay like forever. It wont!

Some people may say my obstacles isn't tougher then their. Yes, that's true. But, Allah does not burden His slave beyond what they can bear. Yours burden is perfectly designed for you. And my burden is perfectly designed for me. It won't be the same.

You may see my obstacles is just a tiny thing compared than yours but then why do you thing, I could not think the same like what you've been thinking? Why I could not think your burden is just a tiny thing than mine? Why I should deny I face nothing than yours? huh?

Hmm. Do not compare your level with someone's else level. Because we face different things, we live a life in different ways, we create our own journey in different story line. We might meet in the same spot in our pathway but we never be in the same journey until the end.

If I said it is tough, I just say in my own context. I don't have any mean to compare with other person's life. Hmmm..

Next semester will be tougher than other semester. I will take extra credit from others. I am scared I will be down throughout the next semester. I am scared I will cry over the night thinking how I can finish my study. I am scared I will be so stressful. I am scared if I feel hopeless.

But, the most scariest thing, I am scared if I decide to give up upon everything.

I pray to Allah over and over, just to allow me to be strong and brave. I pray to Allah over and over for Him to help me out whenever I don't find a way. I pray to Allah over and over, so He may stay with me until the last battle. I pray to Allah over and over so that I am fully rely on Him because I never can make myself to walk through this journey alone. I need Allah to help me and remind me, He is the only Helper.

And hopefully one day, I will proudly read this story again to my grandchildren and encourage them to pursue anything they want and 'shoo' off what makes them scare.

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Love
AH

Wednesday, May 17, 2017

Ramadhan is coming, dear!

If I am not mistaken, ramadhan is just less than two weeks more. Personally, last few days I was still confuse what goals I wanted to set for this ramadhan for reason I could keep on track to do unlimited deeds. Then, what kind of improvement I wanted to make for myself so after ramadhan leave me, I would be someone much better than before. Something I could measure so that I am not being syok sendiri or perasaan sendiri while doing ibadah for Him. 

Then, I watched this video.



Its gives me rough idea what kind of ramadhan I shall have. Thanks Allah cause sending me this video. Hopefully, ramadhan 2017 will bring me closer to You and build me to be a good practicing muslim and be better person.

Ramadhan 2017 is different from other years because I will spent half of ramadhan at my workplace. And yeah, I want to share, I already get my internship placement. Alhamdulillah. Even though, I actually haven't decide yet either to do my intern there or wait another offer because there are few reasons I couldn't state here why I still not decide yet but doakanlah semoga Allah gives the best for me. If going there will make me a better person, may Allah ease it.


To be truth, I'd been waiting this offer quite a long time but when I get it now I feel uncertain. I already discuss with my parents and they said they will support whatever decision I make. Aduh!

Shall I go or not to go?
Go or not to go.
Go or not to go.
Go or not to go.

Is anyone here, have been working at PPUKM? Can you share your experience?

Tuesday, May 16, 2017

How do you eat NIPS?

I love chocolate VERY MUCH and one of my favorite is NIPS. I even have spontaneous habit while eating NIPS. And those who knows me well, will recognize what is the habit. NIPS has 5 different colors inside one packed. I will eat all the colors except one, I will keep the one for the best to be the last. I called that one is my color of happiness.


When I shared my NIPS with anyone, I will make sure my happiness NIPS won't be eaten by any of them. I said it to them, don't ever take that color or I won't share my NIPS with you for the rest of my life. HA-HA.

so, guess what color is my happiness NIPS? jeng.. jeng.. jeng... 

taraaaa

Friday, May 12, 2017

Wanita Hebat


Kali pertama aku mengenali dia
pada tanggal 13 September tahun 1995,
Namun dia telah mengenali ku
9 bulan lebih awal dari tarikh itu.

Malam ini izinkan aku menceritakan
segala yang hebat tentang dia,
kerana aku mahu dunia tahu
super hero itu memang benar-benar wujud

dia adalah guru pertama aku,
untuk setiap kali pertama cubaan aku
dalam mengenali dunia ini,
dia sentiasa ada bersama aku.

Thursday, May 11, 2017

What Aceh gave to me - Pulau Sabang

It's been awhile I tried to write this story, but I lacked with ideas and my hormone didn't work efficiently to activate my writing mood.

Last year, I went to Aceh for educational and spiritual trip. I called it, Trip To Find Who Am I In This World? So, it took one week for me and my friends to discover everything about Aceh; its histories, cultures, places, people and of course its foods! Well, it's not so everything but I must say I quite satisfied and blessed to have this chance to get there. Alhamdulillah.

Even though, the journey wasn't going smoothly as planned but every turn the plot twisted, it went to something much much much better. Well, Allah is the best planner after all :-)

Having a trip in big group and quite long time was great experiences, I learned so much things through them. It was not easy but it was good opportunities to build my inner side for the sake of goodness. Seriously! 

Basically, one of my favorite place in Aceh is Pulau Sabang. In Pulau Sabang, we found one place named Sumur Tiga, it has private beach that is super super beautiful and lovely. The sand is white, the sea water is very clear and I saw a cast of crabs on top of the rocks. I am truly falling in love with the scenery and I just feel want to build my own cottage and spend my whole life there.


Wednesday, May 10, 2017

The most DELICIOUS Mee Curry in Skudai

After we finished our test yesterday, we drove to Taman U to fill our tummy with some foods. And there we found one stall nearby Old Town Restaurant, selling Mee Curry and ABC and other malaysian foods.

I usually order either Mihoon Tomyam or Kuew Tiaw Kungfu for my meal whenever I eat outside campus, so yeah I just order Mihoon Tomyam without thinking much more. For me, nothing can beat these two dishes okey! But my friends ordered Mee Curry, they said Mee Curry is very familiar in this stall. When I looked around, everyone was eating mee curry. So, I a bit wondered how it taste looked like.

I love tauhu with mee curry

Sunday, May 7, 2017

How I envy Vivy Yusof

There is about almost three years I have been following this energetic and stylish woman, Vivy Yusof via media social. She is such an inspiring woman I must say and I guess everyone must agree with my statement, right? I knew her through her Instagram account (@vivyyusof).

It happened when one day the boredom really hits me, I was scrolling my explore looking some interests and then there one video about Daniel was speaking to Vivy in very genuine way, yeah I must admit he has very cute and handsome feature even he is just a kid. LOL. I was so amazed how she taught her son being such a perfect boy with polite manner at his age. And guess what, I repeat the video so many time! So.Many.Time. Until I ended up, scrolling her whole pictures and me being an unpaid stalker.


Thursday, May 4, 2017

Pengalaman pahit di Korea

Bila cerita tentang Korea semestinya dalam fikiran kita akan terbayang benda sweet-sweet, tempat-tempat romatis, oppa-oppa kacak atau unnie-unnie comel. Kalau tak terbayang, boleh tinggalkan blog ini dengan segera sebab anda tidak normal! Eh.

Aku nak kongsi pengalaman yang pahit ketika aku berada di Korea dulu. Secara ringkasnya, ayah aku pernah bekerja di Korea maka aku berpeluang pergi ke sana dua kali. Kali pertama tahun 2013 selama seminggu dan kali kedua tahun 2015 selama sebulan.

Masa tahun 2013 aku pergi, tidak ada pengalaman yang pahit sebab itu kali pertama aku datang dan berada disana pun tidak lama. Dan tak dapat jalan-jalan sangat sebab musim sejuk, waktu siang sangat sekejap. Ayah aku balik kerja dah gelap jadi tak dapat bawak kami jalan-jalan kecuali hujung minggu, itupun hanya ronda-ronda di bandar Busan dan sekitar bandar Okpo.
























Wednesday, May 3, 2017

Hang on, dear!

my 6th semester will be end very soon
and as usual, bila masuk 2nd part of semester,
adegen2 atau senario2 seperti berikut wajib berlaku.

1)Semua subjek ada assignment dan ianya perlu disubmit pada minggu yang sama

selalunya 2nd part of semester adalah waktu yang paling busy, stress and exhausted sebab semua benda nak disiapkan dan disubmit. Assignment, report, proposal tambah dengan quiz, test and paling besar final exam. ergh!

2)Clash waktu discussion antara group discussion yang berlainan subjek

Disebabkan setiap sem aku akan bertukar-tukar coursemate, tambah pula ada subjek-subjek tertentu yang tak sama dengan groupmate untuk subjek lain, jadi nak dapatkan chemistry dengan groupmate untuk certain subjek amatlah memakan masa. Dan bayangkan setiap subjek ada groupmate yang berbeza, so ceritanya memang agak frust bila nak buat meeting sebab masing-masing ada pe'el tersendiri. Dan clash bila nak buat group discussion tu memang selalu terjadi.

okey enough is enough dengan bebelan.
orang kata kehidupan masa belajar adalah moment paling best
so, lets enjoy the pain because through pain
we've learned so many things,
and we've grown.

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Monday, May 1, 2017

Rindu yang tidak berjasad

Bismillah

pernahkah kau merindui seseorang
yang kau tak tahu pun siapakah orang yang kau rindu itu?

pernahkah kau merindui seseorang
yang kau tak pernah tahu kewujudan dia ada atau tidak di muka bumi ini?

pernahkah kau merindui seseorang
jasadnya, jiwanya, rohnya yang kau tak pernah jumpa selama kau hidup di dunia ini?

aku..
pernah :-)

aku tidak tahu jika perasaan ini normal bagi seorang manusia
tapi, apa yang aku hendak perkatakan,
rindu ini satu perasaan yang aneh

perasaan rindu ini
ia tidak sama seperti perasaan suka,
ataupun perasaan cinta,
ataupun perasaan marah,
atau perasaan benci

Wednesday, April 12, 2017

Loneliness

sometime in the darkness of night
sometime in the brightness of daylight
sometime in the deepest place of heart
sometime in the outermost place of space
She can feel the feeling of wanting someone to hold her tightly
and tell her,
It's okay to be broken
It's okay to feel exhausted
It's okay to cry over what made her crush inside
because she is human.

but
in the end, she is waiting someone who'll never come
so, she puts everything she wants in her prayer
She bursts everything for Him to hear her
and how hopeless she can be

she wonders why she breaks so easily
but to heal is taking some times...