My Journey


Pernah bercita-cita untuk menjadi seorang juruterbang wanita pertama Malaysia, tetapi sangat mencintai dan ingin mendalami ilmu biologi, namun pernah dipanggil untuk menyahut cabaran dalam bidang seni bina walaubagaimanapun telah ditakdirkan menyambung kehidupan sebagai mahasiswi kejuruteraan elektrik-elektronik ketika ini.
[3rd year survivor of electrical & electronic engineering student]

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Monday, July 24, 2017

The Most Viewed Entry

Recently, I just clean up my draft box because of so many unfinished post I lazily to continue. Aku ada masalah untuk sambung menulis post-post yang aku sudah tinggalkan. Tak tahu kenapa habit aku macam ni, aku ada perasaan tidak suka menyentuh benda yang sudah terbiar. Rasa macam menyampah giler tengok kerja yang separuh siap. I just feel like wanting to punch my own face. Grrrr. So, I decided to remove all the leftovers post except few which I plan to post when the right time comes.

So, when scrolling down all my published entries, my eyes startled to one of my post which I wrote it about 3 years ago. [Baca di sini] About my experience when I was in matriculation back in 2013, this post in my early version of the matured Ainiey. If you ever follow me since the beginning of my writing journey, you would see significantly the revolution of me. Seriously! (But, I guess no one would follow me since then. Yea, who cares about you, Ainiey!) *shut down lap top*

Sometime, I would read back all my dummy posts and  I would chuckle to my immatured version of me. How funny I could be! No, it's not funny. It is just dummy me! However, at one point I realize, how fast time flies and now I am growing up and growing older! Yeah since I've already started drinking Anlene to repair my fragile bone, and consumed collagen to maintain elasticity for my baby skin, and only god knows how engineering makes my hair grey. I don't know either this happens because of my age or my shampoo is so bad. So, to all my juniors, you should count this as one of the excuses why you shouldn't take engineering as your life. HAHAHA. No, I am just kidding. Engineering is fantastically fun! Trust me! :D

I am sorry because taking you to another world, back to the real topic, where do we stop? *let me read back my previous paragraph*

The reason I don't delete my old post, is I need it as reference and reminder. Sometime, when I feel down I will read back my old writings. It is somehow give my strength back, lift up my positive thought and drive my step forward. That is why, I like to write positive things because I need it in my negative time. I always repeatedly say to myself every words I write in public, is specifically I dedicate those words directly to myself. Not to other. But, if other people can get benefit from it, I will be thankful.

[This post] is the most viewed post all the time, it reached almost 2000 viewer. Usually, the number rise when the matriculation result came out. Well, I hope this not-so-helping-post, do really initiate the spirit of my young juniors out there to bravely pursue their dreams. Don't stop when you are tired, stop when you are done. You don't know how much closer between you and success if you give up now.

Today, I can pat shoulder of my old version of me. Because of she decided to not giving up, I am now at better position which I never could imagine once ago. Alhamdulillahi ' ala kulli nikmah. Hopefully, this current version of me will not disappointed the future version of me. May He guides me and ease my journey.

A book that crawls into your soul and never go out

Love
AH

Sunday, July 23, 2017

What kind of engineer I want to be

Bila berkerja dibidang yang bukan dari bidang yang aku belajar, satu benda yang aku acknowledge, ilmu yang aku ada sekarang sangat sangat sangat sangat sangatttt sikit. Di HUKM, setiap hari aku belajar benda baru. Kalau bukan dari rakan praktikal, dari staff yang bekerja di sana, atau dari doktor-doktor yang bertugas atau dari pesakit yang kita assist, mereka semua memberi pengajaran dan knowlegde baru setiap hari pada aku.

Setelah sebulan lebih berada di sini, aku banyak bersyukur dengan nikmat yang Allah beri pada aku. Pertama sekali, bila dapat peluang berkhidmat pada masyarakat walaupun sebenarnya apa yang aku beri tu sangat-sangat tak bernilai pun tapi aku rasa sangat seronok dapat tolong mereka. Jujur, aku mungkin tak akan dapat merasa peluang ini jika Allah takdirkan aku buat praktikal di dalam industri.

Kedua, setiap hari aku akan cuba duduk sebentar dan beriman sejenak akan nikmat kesihatan yang Allah telah beri pada aku selama 22 tahun aku hidup ini. Bila setiap hari tengok orang sakit, aku cuba jentik hati aku untuk selalu rasa syukur, "Ya Allah terima kasih Kau beri kesihatan pada aku hari ini." Aku akan cuba ulang ayat ini setiap hari. Ada orang pernah cakap kat aku, kesihatan ini seperti makhota dan ia hanya dapat dilihat oleh orang yang sakit.

Di jabatan radiologi ni, tidak sikit pesakit cancer yang datang untuk buat medical imaging dan diagnostic. Ada yang cancer stage dua, ada yang dah stage empat, ada yang orang tua, ada juga yang budak kecil, ada cikgu, ada juga pangkat professor, ada cancer otak, ada yang cancer sudah merebak ke serata anggota. Allah hu rabbi. Tapi, rata-rata pesakit yang aku jumpa, tidak pernah loket membalas senyuman aku. 

Orang cakap persekitaran di sini, luar dari suasana kejuruteraan dan ada juga orang kata bila aku decide buat praktikal di hospital aku tak akan dapat bina potensi aku dalam bidang aku. Tapi sebenarnya tidak! Justeru aku lebih tahu dan lebih faham, what kind of engineer I want to be in future. Berada di sini aku dekat dengan masyarakat, aku discover keperluan mereka, aku encounter masalah-masalah yang dihadapi mereka dan sebagai future engineer suatu hari nanti aku akan cari jalan penyelesaian kepada masalah yang di hadapi mereka. InsyaAllah.

Aku masih ingat lagi, hari pertama aku jejakkan kaki di UTM, seorang alumi UTM yang bekerja sebagai senior engineer pernah beritahu, engineer ini dilahirkan untuk menyelesaikan masalah yang dihadapi masyarakat dalam kehidupan seharian mereka dari se-basic masalah sehingga masalah yang besar. Kerja kita mencari solusi dan bertindak. Selalu cari peluang untuk belajar perkara baru, jika tidak jumpa, maka ciptalah peluang itu. Jadilah engineer thinks without the box. (Not out of the box)

Sampai hari ini, aku akan pegang dengan kata-kata itu. Di mana pun, Allah letakkan aku. Aku bercita-cita untuk jadi benih yang menumbuhkan akar, pohon, ranting dan daun-daun yang berguna untuk agama dan sesiapa saja yang berhampiran aku. Hopefully, every one can get benefit from me even just a particle of kindness. Amin. InsyaAllah

Love,
AH

Saturday, July 22, 2017

How to create an APP for android

As final year student-to-be, I am preparing myself for Final Year Project that I will be doing for my last two semesters. So, I have already started to plan what type of project I will run because of I have very limited time. Basically, in e&e engineering it has three type of project we can do; prototype, software or research based.

Prototype means student needs to build a hardware

Ni projek tahun tiga aku. Aku buat smart wheelchair using voice recognization. 
Wheelchair ni bergerak menggunakan arahan suara

Hasilnya, you guys can play video below.



Software means student has to create application that can be used by smartphone.

Image result for electronic final year project software


Research usually student will collect data, analyzing, doing experiment and others.

Aku nak cerita sikitlah, masa aku tengah cari maklumat pasal software dan cara-cara nak bina app kat smartphone untuk pengguna android, aku terjumpa ada satu website yang menyediakan cara nak buat app secara free. Sangat mudah weh!

Ni nama website tu

Ni antara jenis-jenis apps yang kau boleh buat

Contoh kalau aku nak buat apps pasal website AH Blog, aku hanya perlu click kat website, then masukkan url blog, pastu edit dan touch up. SIAP! As simple as that. Tapi kalau nak lagi kemas dan power, kena pandai main dengan HTML coding.


Ni contoh aku buat simple app untuk AH Blog

Kalau dah siap, dah preview dan dah puas hati. Akhir sekali, aku boleh publish app aku kat APPSTORE. Untuk pengetahuan, bila dah publish app tu di APPSTORE, setiap kali orang download app yang aku buat, aku boleh dapat income. APPSTORE yang akan bayar kat aku. Lumayankan? Boleh buat side income.

Boleh tonton video "How to publish"

Cuma, sebelum aku nak publish app kat APPSTORE, aku kena register dulu dan kena buat account di APPSTORE. Dan sekali register, kena bayar 25US dollar bersamaan RM108. Barulah boleh publish app tu. Buat app free, publish app kena bayar.

Tetapi, kalau app yang dibuat itu memang bagus dan digunakan oleh orang ramai, ramai orang download, bayaran RM108 tu celah gigi je. Cuma nak buat app yang bagus tu perlukan kemahiran dan kesenian sikitlah supaya target customer tu tercapai. Biasa app user friendly ni ramai orang suka.

Contoh, dulu lazada sebelum ada app kat smartphone, meraka hanya bina website je, tapi bila dah upgrade dan nak tarik lagi ramai pelanggan serta nak permudahkan urusan customer, mereka bina app pula.

Ni lazada website version

Ni lazada app version
Kantoi selalu shopping kat lazada >___<

Hopefully, this entry is useful for those who ever ask how to build a simple app. But, of course there have some other methods to build an application. This is one of the simplest way to build an app especially for beginner. However, this method only applicable for android user only, for iOS you need to find other app builder to create an app but I think the fundamental is still the same.

Untuk yang bakal buat FYP, all the best for you guys and may Allah ease everything! Doakan aku juga tau. Thank you for reading!

Love,
AH

Friday, July 21, 2017

I couldn't be prouder


As daughter of an engineer, I may have greatest influence from my parent, but in 22 years of my life, my parent never force me to do what I want to do, they never decide things for me, they never expect me to be like what other's children be and they never have negative assumption with the journey I decided to walk through.

I would lie if I said I never make wrong decision in my life. I swear I did, but honestly I never regret it. From wrong decision, I learned how to fix things up and do it wisely later on. From failure, I learned how to be strong and to fight again. Every single experiences and moments that Allah sent to my path, I believe it is a learning process to know myself better, to discover my hidden potential and to be closer to the one who created me.

Technically, my family is technical based background except my mom (she is super woman) and my younger sister because she is still in secondary school and will be seated for PT3 exam. Other members, insyaAllah we are in the same wagon. Weeehuuuu. And our role model is my father. Whoever knew my father would recognize, he is a quiet man with ambitious mind. He always do something to his fullest and never do any tasks or jobs or projects halfway. He is a persistent man and I dare to say, whoever worked with him would like how he's done his job.

I secretly admire my dad the way he responded to problem and the way he proposed the solution, never did he threw any bad words or negative thoughts to other person. He always find win-win solution if it involved with two prides and sometime when the problem still couldn't be settled, he would be the one who sacrificed himself. I couldn't be prouder to have him as my father. I even couldn't notice how amazing he is actually. Because to be honest I didn't really know him very much when I was young. Now, as I am growing older, my image about my dad became clearer.

Things happened like this because of my dad's job is at project site. If his project happened to be at terengganu, so he had to work there. If his project happened to be at sarawak, so he had to go there. He went to wherever project took him. And now, at the furthest place; South Korea. When me and my brothers were still young, we would follow where my dad go. But, as we've grown up and we needed to go to school so my dad decided to stay at one place and let him be away alone.

Since I was 10 years old, we have lived seperately. We barely have time together, no daughter-father chit-chat moments, no father's hugs and kisses for my achievements, no family celebration for birthday and no attendance for report card since he worked distant from us. I haven't have enough time to know him personally. I grew up as teenager without my dad around me but alhamdulillah Allah really protect and secure me, even though I haven't have enough attention from my dad (as a man) during my teenager phase but Allah didn't turn my heart to find any attention from other man. Maybe, my dad did pray a lot for me and my safety, I guess. I never have boyfriend in my life and I still be happy.

Now, I am becoming an elder woman but in the eyes of my dad, I am still his little daughter. The moment I started knowing him personally is after 19 years I live in this world, it happened while I spent my summer break at Korea and stayed with my dad for one month. Yea, that was my first experience having daughter-father chit-chat moment. It was fascinating! We went to aquaria together, we went to military museum together, we ate Uzbek's dished together, we had not-so-candlelight dinner together, we went to shopping for just two of us and many things we did together. When he went to work, I would cook and did laundry. 

He is not talkative person but he is a good listener. He is not sweet dad but he is the most caring daddy. My dad has military background as he was graduated from Royal Military College (RMC) so basically, he is a discipline father with a soft-hearted. When I was in Korea, the best memonts is I had a heart-to-heart conversation with him, when he said how he respects and loves my mom as he is being away from family and letting my mom settled everything by her own; taking care us, house core, expense and budget. He felt glad to have my mom as his wife. Yea, I could say everything she did by her own.. Hmm.

Indeed, I have a superwoman mom. I am blessed with her presence too.

Talking about my dad, something unpredictable happened to myself. Last week, my dad whatsapp-ed me and do you know what happen? Out of sudden, he asked me


His question "Pak we doc mcmana?" gave me a goosebumps all over my body. Where did he gets this information? How did he knows? Why so sudden? All the questions come like a bullet in my mind. Fuh.. Fuh.. Inhale..Exhale..Inhale..Exhale.. Well, if you know how to control your adrenaline rush, everything will be settle down onto its place. Eicehhh.

My dad is very particular about the things he wants to say. No empty talk, no rubbish chatting. Everything out from his mouth is important and informative. Or else, he is just keep silent. Back to whatapps conversation, whenever the conversation started like this, I knew something serious was happening. And before the conversation got more serious, I better put my hands up. Who knows a soft-hearted father probably turns to a stern sergeant if it involves with his daughter's happiness.

Moral of the story: Don't expect your father didn't know what you do. Just be a good girl if you want to be safe. Stay safe and stay cool, guys!

Love,
AH

Thursday, July 20, 2017

The reason I choose engineering

CT Scan internal part

After completing my matriculation level, I had a bit dilemma in choosing what field I wanted to further my study. My mom really wanted me to be a teacher, she said that profession suits for lady. She worried I would follow my dad's step because she had strong instinct I would do so. But, my dad is very natural. He said pursue whatever you want but don't do it halfway.

Even though, I didn't really into with physics but I found chemistry between me and electrical. I realized during my matriculation, I love that chapter very much. All the formula at my fingertip. I also keep all my secondary school notes for electricity chapter and even compiled it neatly (for future used I guessed) but I didn't do it to any other chapters. So, from that, when I filled up UPU online registration, I put electrical as my majoring study.

So, when choosing field at UPU online registration, it had four options for Research University and eight options for non-research university, I put electrical electronic engineering as my first and second choices but at different university. Then biomedical engineering as my third and fourth choices. This application is for Research University. Another eight options, I choosed electrical in science, landscape in architecture and many more. Along the waiting period before the result announced, I did istikharah prayer, hoping for Allah gave what is best for me in the eye of Him. I trust everything Allah decides for me, He knows the best for His slave. 

The result came out and I got the first choice of UPU's application. And guess who was the one felt happy but at the same time felt worried? Yah, my mom. She disbelieved I choosed engineering at last. But, I tried to convince her with so many excuses and finally she gave her blessing for my decision. Yeah!

Honestly, I never have a dream to take engineering as my study, not even my ambition to be an engineer. From my early age, I wanted to be a pilot or maybe an architect because for me that job is super cool. Don't you think so? But... Who knows right? HEHEHE. Well, I believe Allah's plan is much much much better.

Six semesters already completed, another two semesters waiting me ahead. So far, I enjoy being an e&e engineering student. I never thought engineering world is fun (as if you don't have bunch of assignments, late night tests and multiple projects at one time). Especially, when you see how technologies grow in your palm. And your electronic devices being used by diverse people to ease their daily life. The feeling is like a mother gives birth to her child, it's hurt but the feeling is undescribable happy.Its tough but you will feel contented.

Now, I am still struggling to complete my degree in electrical electronic engineering. I hope everyone who reads this post can shoot some duá for my success. Another two semesters to go. I hope I will be able to complete my degree study on time with flying colour. May your duá bounce back to you, insyaAllah.

For my juniors who want to pursue engineering but feeling hesitated to do so, or to those my juniors who already study in engineering but wanting to give up, my advice is whenever you see no way out, Pray to Allah and trust yourself. Don't ever look giving up is an option. Just walk because when Allah allows you to it, He will make you through it. 

Footnote: Sometime you just need to close your eyes and let the wind drives your steps, with a hope the wind is purposely sent from the Almighty all the way to your journey. Hmm... I mean, just keep walking! (if you don't get my metaphor :D)

Love,
AH

Monday, July 17, 2017

Engineer di hospital

Hari ini masuk minggu ke enam aku berada di jabatan radiologi sebagai pelajar praktikal. Ramai orang yang pelik macam mana pelajar kejuruteraan boleh buat internship placement di hospital. Pelik tetapi benar! Basically, aku sudah cerita [boleh baca di sini] macam mana aku boleh tercampak seorang diri di hospital walaupun at first, aku rasa tak berapa sure nak stay here. Tapi, pejam celik sebulan telah pun berlalu dengan begitu pantas dan tinggal lagi 6 minggu sahaja lagi aku akan mengakhiri latihan industri disini. Woah!

Sepanjang aku berada di sini, banyak benda baru aku belajar. Selain enviroment di hospital ini yang memang asing bagi aku, aku belajar banyak ilmu-ilmu baru yang asing dan luar dari bidang kejuruteraan. I feel glad and grateful to be given an opportunity to be here and being lingering around with so many people and colleagues which I barely get this chance back in UTM.

Doing internship in hospital specifically at radiology department is quite tougher than I thought because of my majoring knowledge is engineering based and what I have learned in class during previous semesters is something different with what I am working now. It is related but it is something more to application to what I have learned before.

Di sini aku tidak mengadap circuit, tidak mengendalikan AC/DC generator, tidak menjumpai resistor/capacitor/inductor, tidak bermain dengan coding dan software, tidak ada encounter dengan control system problem and proposed solution, tidak bersentuh dengan elektronik components/instrument, tidak pening kepala buat troubleshoot and analysis pada complex circuit dan sudah pastinya tiada renjatan elektrik..

Apa yang ada di sini, several complete machines come with its own user friendly software, buku dan data internet untuk cari matlumat tentang function dan procedure untuk sesuatu modaliti yang ada di jabatan radiologi. Di sini aku banyak membaca dan membaca dan membaca. To be honest, I hate reading facts information especially information with lots of lots of words and I cannot stand with a thick non-fiction book that has very small fonts, its hurting my eyes! But, after several weeks doing the same thing, now I can get used to this new routine.

I can say, doing internship here has pros and cons. But, as future engineer I don't want to look the weakness side and being drowned for its disadvantage instead I try to find the oppurtunity that can improve myself, skills and knowledges. As if there is no opportunity and space to learn new things then I take a risk to create the oppurtunity and set my own goals to achieve. Be brave and independent to try new thing is my motto here. Hehehe.

Alhamdulillah. Everything is from Allah blessings. I don't expect anything when I come here. I don't expect what they can give to me instead I do the math to what I already give to them and to me myself yeah that is the most important thing I guess. I have a lot of stories I want to share but as for now I just be able to write this first.

My experiences face with different community, various background study and profession levels in one building is the priceless experience I would ever have. Knowing doctor life is another point of view that changes my perspective and yea lots of things I really want to share here. InsyaAllah. Doakan aku sentiasa berada dalam good state of spiritual and physical condition. I am still struggling to be a better one. Hope AH Blog reader be at good state as well.

Love,
AH

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Saturday, July 15, 2017

Do not stop to know yourself

I had read an article about Q.U.A.I.N.T.R.E.L.L.E. which insists me to share something with AH World. Have you ever heard this word before? Nah? If not, (I hope you don't know!) please allow me to throw some pieces of my thoughts about the meanings behind this term. Ehem.

QUAINTRELLE is a term that defines a woman who emphasizes a life of passion expressed through personal style, leisurely pastimes, charm, and a cultivation of life's pleasures.

Basically, QUAINTRELLE stands with five pillars

  • A life of passion
  • Personal style
  • Leisurely pastimes
  • Charm
  • Cultivation of life's pleasures

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A life of passion
What is life without passion? More important than money or status, passion is the driving force for a fulfilling and beautiful life. What are your passions? (Yes, you can have more than one!) Whether it’s literature, film, art, travel or food, the quaintrelle makes pursuing her multiple passions a priority in her daily life. She dedicates her working life to a subject she is passionate about and cultivates relationships with those she feels passionate towards.


Personal style
Ah, style. The grown-up sister of fashion. While fashion is fast, frivolous and (ultimately) futile, style says something about the woman you are. How you present yourself shows creativity, individuality, and self respect. And it’s not just about how you dress, either – style shows up when you pen a handwritten note, decorate your home, and wrap up a gift for a loved one. Every moment in life is a chance to express your personality and creativity through your personal style.

Leisurely pastimes
A leisurely pastime is anything you find both enjoyable and relaxing – reading a good book, sipping a hot cup of herbal tea, taking a scented bubble bath at the end of a tiring day, or going for a brisk half hour walk through the local park. These are just some of my leisurely pastimes. What is it for you? A quaintrelle will always make room for fun in her schedule, whether it’s a tennis match, meeting a friend for coffee, or perusing a new art exhibition.

Charm
Everyone can be charming, but it’s a muscle you have to stretch and train. Flirting, actually, is just being charming – but you can do it with anyone! Friends, colleagues, the barista at your local coffee shop – everyone. Smile, compliment, and be charming – others will naturally be drawn to you. Charm isn’t sleazy or false – be honest but kind, be a good listener, and make whoever you’re talking to feel like they’re the most important person in your world – that’s charm.

Cultivation of life’s pleasures
In other words, the little things – watching the sunrise on a dewy spring morning, taking your first sip of red wine on a Friday night, or downloading the latest episode of your favourite podcast. When you practice gratitude and celebrate the little things, life becomes richer and even more fulfilling. I like to keep a small notebook on my bedside table, and each night before going to sleep, I fill a page with a list of things I’m grateful for – big or small.

passion + style + leisure + charm + pleasure = quaintrelle.

From the article I read, I realize I AM A QUAINTRELLE! After 22 years old I live, I just discovered whom I am. It is still not too late to know myself, right? :) 

The only way to love my own self, is, by knowing whom I am. We cannot love something we don't know. right? Like the saying goes,"Tak kenal, maka tak cinta. Tak kenal, maka ta'aruf la."

Same goes to a long last relationship. I did ask my mom how to get a long last relationship and the love that never fade away. My mom said "Keep knowing and keep learning new things about your partner/friends no matter how long you have been together, because naturally people change, that is why you need to know them every day."

Though, I never in relationship hehe, but I agree with my mom.

Know. Learn. Love.
Do it everyday.
And that is how QUAINTRELLE lives her life.

Love,
AH